Life’s like a filter.
Have you ever felt like your suddenly sitting down with yourself having a conversation about what’s happened? How old am I? How did I get here? Should I of done that? Where will I be in 10 years time? Will I have my house? Will I have children?
Well recently I’ve had a lot of thinking time and I’ve realised life’s like a filter.
When you’re in your teens it’s the most exciting thing to be old enough to go out and party and be an absolute mess! Dance till morning and feel sick till the next evening. So you get there enjoy this for a little while and realise there is more to life than wasting my hard-earned waitress money on feeling like utter rubbish. You graduate and get a job that was nothing that you expected. But you stay anyways cause the money’s good and it’s close to home. You make new friends at this job and realise your pretty good at it and it’s not too bad after all. You start to realise that the odd couple of people are decent so you give them your time and start to care. You let them in.
So you’ve been at this job a few years and it’s working out for you. You actually enjoy going to work. Is it what you want to do? You’ve progressed but is it making you happy? Are you doing what you really want? Well…but….What you really want to do would mean going back to university, sacrificing what you’ve achieved so far. Is it worth it? Your still not guaranteed a job. So you go from idea to idea then realise that your filtering once again to what’s wrong and what right for you.
Hello???? Yes you! Hello Me! Yup I’m talking to myself again! I almost lost myself there with my work. I’ve stopped making time for me. Wow, to make time for ME I’m always so busy making sure other people are ok.
Relationships aren’t always the smiles and laughter you dream of like in a fairy tale.
Personally I found a couple foul eggs before I met my “Prince Charming” as all the fairy tales say you will have your happy ending. I started to give up on finding my happy ending until I was forced into quitting my job to travel one summer. I thought I had a decent guy who needed a little bit of a turn around but nope wrong again. I’d already been hurt from a 5 and a half-year relationship. My basket was empty. I was done. I gave up.
Why do we let people in who just want to break you down? I don’t know. But what I do know is that my “Prince Charming” was right in front of me. I know, I know it sounds so cliché but it’s true. Was it love at first sight? I don’t know but he made me laugh and I felt so natural and goofy around him. We met at work whilst I was at university and I know they also say “Love is Blind” wow was this true! Everyone saw it first. I guess I just wasn’t looking but he found me.
In life we come across different scenarios like horrible bosses who won’t keep your job open 3month but look what happened. I found a job 2 days later after arriving back from the best 3months of my life in America being a Lifeguard. Which lead me on the same path as my future. It took a few months to realise but when I did, it was the best feeling In The world.
I started appreciating the tiny things in life. The kind gestures that I would do for others he would do for me. I wasn’t used to this. To be honest…I cried the first few months as I had previously been made to believe that I was worthless, not good enough. To be treated like a princess. To be made to feel like I was worth every second of his time. I was confused and amazed this man wanted to be nice to me! Me! Things went pretty fast but as they say “You just know” this is when I understood that saying. It’s true and you do just know.
It’s a shame we have to filter the rubbish to find the gold but it’s worth the wait!
Not everyone’s perfect but I tell you he’s damn close to it! Well to me and that’s what counts.
Relationships are built everyday but it’s the ones that we continue to build that matter for example your friendship circle.
You realise that your friend circle isn’t really a circle anymore. You can just about count your “True” friends on your hand. Is that such a bad thing? If you had a room full of people you could “Actually” call your friends would you be happy?
There comes times in life when it gets hard. Things don’t go as you had planned. Those are the times when you find you who your real friends are.
Even if you’ve lost contact with a close friend at those times of need they will come to you. And to those that don’t well you guessed right they aren’t your real friends.
Filter out the people who wouldn’t filter their day for you.
Thanks for reading!!
Why not read Lifes Like a Filter Part 2